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(no subject) [Aug. 20th, 2006|04:04 pm]
jess
[mood |confusedstupid friggin star]
[music |dope]

would someone like to tell me what is wrong with me and my train of thought???actually, dont. because if i dont know whats wrong with me then u dont, and i wouldnt want to hear it from you anyways...i swear, sometimes i just wish this friggin world would would dissapear...i hate myself sometimes for always being so differevnt from eveyone else...
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the things that float around in the back of my head [Aug. 20th, 2006|02:39 pm]
jess
[Current Location |a big comfy spinny chair:)]
[mood |awakeawake]
[music |heart shaped box]

there are people who like you for your looks, there are people who like you for your favorite bands, there are also those iggnorant people who only like because they think that you might like them, and then there are those people that i still have left to find...the people who like ME for ME...not because they have to, not because its the nice thing to do, not because were are sooo incredibly alike, or because im gorgeous(lol,jk), or even because its convenient, just because they WANT to...because they enjoy your company and theirs in return...know what im saying???the people whom you never REALLY get into FIGHTS with because you're both just too glad to know that you can have seperate opinions and still like the person a whole lot...and im not talking about the little dissagreements, those happen because of our meer existance...the person who says "i like being around you because you make me feel good about myself"...the person who ur never in competition with because you know that thats so friggin stupid...the person who can admittt something so screwed up in the eyes of an outlooker, and know that ur still gunna like them...i still have yet to figure out if this is possible...:0...i mean, id be like that for someone else...sooo, wouldnt someone else to?...i have no idea...plus i went way off topic...all im saying is that the human race is so messed up and yet so fasinating at the same time...and i think wed all get along a whole lot better, or even just simply be more accepting of eachother if we looked around us and took into consideration that everyone has their pluses, and their downfalls...and that there is nothing we can do about it other than to learn from the people around us, and helll, maybe well even discover something totally amazing about ourselves, somehow i doubt it...anyways,i update wayyyyy too much when i get the chance and just end up sounding non seniscal...


~JESSICA~


ps-
soccer starts tomarrow, yay!!!!
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(no subject) [Aug. 20th, 2006|02:20 pm]
jess
[Current Location |SYRACUSE]
[mood |bouncybouncy]
[music |CHAMPAIGNE SUPERNOVA]

HEY...I AM SOOOOO GLAAD THAT WORK ENDED YESTERDAY...WELLL, THE DAY BEFORE...IM SORRY, MONEY IS NICE, BUT I CANNOT STAND KIDS, ATLEAST THOSE KIDS...I MEAN, WORK IS WORKISH...THRES A BILLION KIDS RUNNING AROUND ASKING YOU TO TIE THEIR SHOE OR OPEN THEIR MILK OR PLAY CANDY LAND WITH THEM (BY THE WAY, I HAVE MASTERED THE GAME:))...FROM 8309 TO 530 I WAS COMPLETLY MUSICALY DEPRIVED OTHER THAN "KIDS DANCE MIX" AND "BINGO WAS HIS NAMEO"...NOT TO MENTION I HAD NO REAL TALK OTHER THAN "DONT CHOKE HANNAH", OR "TAKE A BIG BITE OF YOUR SANDWHICH FIRST", OR MY FAVORITE, "NO, IT IS NOT SWIM TIME YET"...LOL, ANYWAYS, IF I WORK THERE NEXT YEAR, WHICH I WILL, IM DEFINATLY GETTING THE HIGHSCHOOLERS RATHER THAN THE 4 AND 5 YEAR OLDS...THATS FOR SURE...LAST NIGHT WAS FUN...I LIKE BEING ABLE TO GET MY OWN MONEY OUT OF THE ATMS...SO I WENT CLOTHES SHOPPING IN SYRACUSE W/H VAL...AJ WRIGHT IS THEE BEST:):):)...SO, FOR ART NEXT YEAR I8M ALMOST POSITIVE THAT I AM TAKING STUDIO ART 2 AND PHOTOGRAPHY MOST DEFINATLY...I CANT WAIT FOR PHTOGRAHY...IM NOT GUNNA BOTHER SPELLING THAT RIGHT, IN STEAD ILL JUST MUMBLE ABOUT SOME OTHER UNIMPORTANT TOPIC...IM JUST GLAD THAT IM FINALLY 15...BUT IM SORTA SAD TOO, B/C AS SOON AS I TURN 17...I DONT WANT TO GET ANY OLDER...I MEAN, WHEN UR 18, UR UR OWN BOSS, SO TO SAY...AND WHEN UR 21 YOU CAN LEGALLY DRINK, BUT NO ONE CARES ABOUT THAT ANYWAYS B/C ITS NOT LIKE ANYONE ACTUALLY WAITS...ITS JUST, I DONT WANNA GET OLDER I SUPPOSE, AND I GUESS I AM SORTA AFRAID TO GROW UP AND FEND FOR MYSELF...YA' KNOW??? PAYING BILLS, CHOOSING COLLEGES, GETTING A JOB, AND FINDING A CARREER...LIVING ON MY OWN...IN A WAY ITS THE BEST THING SINCE SLICED BREAD...AND IN ANOTHER ITS SO FRIGGIN SCARY...WELLL, ANYWHO, IM WAY OFF TOPIC AND AM GOING TO GO BATHE...TTYL:):):)TOODLES

~JeSsIcA~


PS-

I DONT CARE WHAT ANYONE SAYS, LUKAS, FROM THE SHOW SUPERNOVA, IS FRIGGIN HOT, EYE SHADOW AND ALL:)AND THATS LIKE PRETTY MUCH THE ONLY TV I WATCH
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(no subject) [Aug. 19th, 2006|03:32 pm]
jess
[mood |creativecreative]
[music |TOM PETTY "WALLFLOWERS"]

GOD, I JUST WANNA SPEND MY LIFE TAKING PICTURES AND TRAVELING...MEETING PEOPLE OUTSIDE OF JEFFERSON COUNTY...I MEAN, I GUESS THE IDEA OF LIFE IS TO GO TO SCHOOL, GET A JOB AND TAKE IN MONEY SO YOU CAN SURVIVE...BUT THAT'S SOOOOO...BORING...PREDICTABLE...SCHOOLS OK, BUT HALF THE STUFF I LEARN IS POINTLESS...AND JUST MAKES ME FEEL STUPID IF I DON'T GET IT...ANS STUDIO ART HAS ITS LIMITS...ART IS NOT SUPPOSED TO HAVE LIMITS...I WANNA LIVE IT, BREATH IT...NOT SPEND 45 MINUTES FOLLOWING THE "CURRICULUM" WITH A BUNCH OF MORONS WHO ARE ONLY TAKING ART SO THEY CAN GET THEIR CREDITS...JOBS ARE GOOD I GUESS...KEEPS U BUSY...KEEPS THE MONEY FLOWING, BUT FOR WHAT???IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYTHING WE DO IN LIFE IS TO JUST GET BY...BUT I DONT WANNA JUST GET BY...I WANNA SURPASS EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE AND MAKE MUSIC AND WRITE POETRY AND COME UP WITH POSSIBILITIES...I DON'T WANT TO SURVIVIE...I WANNA LIVE...YA' KNOW...ANSWERS ARE ON BOOKS ON SHELVES...POSSIBILITIES COME FROM THE BACK OF YOUR HEAD...THEY COME FROM THE POPLE THAT SURROUND YOU...FROM JUST PLAIN OUT LOOKING AROUND...TO ME, IT IS SO MUCH MORE EXILERATING AND SATISFYING TO KEEP LEARNING AND EXPLORING THE POSSIBIITIES FOR YOURSELF THEN IT IS TO ASK A QUESTION AND JUST BE OK WITH WHAT SOMEONE ELSE IS GOING TO TELL YOU...THAT'S ALL I'VE GOT TO SAY...

~jEsSiCa~
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pictures [Aug. 4th, 2006|06:47 pm]
jess
pictures. letchworth. meaghan.

http://i42.photobucket.com/albums/e315/lost_irish_eyes/000_0046.jpg

http://i42.photobucket.com/albums/e315/lost_irish_eyes/000_0039.jpg

http://i42.photobucket.com/albums/e315/lost_irish_eyes/000_0038.jpg

http://i42.photobucket.com/albums/e315/lost_irish_eyes/000_0035.jpg

http://i42.photobucket.com/albums/e315/lost_irish_eyes/000_0033.jpg

http://i42.photobucket.com/albums/e315/lost_irish_eyes/000_0031.jpg
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(no subject) [Jun. 21st, 2006|11:06 am]
jess
[mood |amusedamused]
[music |3RD EYE BLIND]

WOW......... SO ITS LIKE ONLY THE 6TH DAY OF SUMMER VAY-K AND IT'S ALEADY BEEN WICKED PACKED.....I ENJOY IT THOUGH....THE END OF THIS WEEK IS TRAINING FOR WORK UP AT WILEY.......THAT SHOULD BE FUN........CASSIE AND I HAVE SPENT A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT OF TIME TOGETHER TOO...YAY:) ELDERODO ROCKS.....ANYWAYS, I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH HAPPIAR NOW THEN I HAVE EVER BEEN BEFORE..................CUZ' I DON'T LIKE YOU:)AND THAT ROX!!!!

~JESIKA~
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(no subject) [Apr. 1st, 2006|06:29 pm]
jess
SO MY NEICE, KIAH-LILY, WAS BORN ON SAINT PATRICKS DAY...BEAUTIFUL,BEAUTIFUL, 5 POUNDER...GOSH MY SISTER MAKES BEAUTIFUL BABIES...FIONA IS GETTING SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BIG...I LOVE HER TO DEATH EVEN WHEN SHE WAKES ME UP AT THE CRACK ASS OF DAWN TO TELL ME SHE TOOK A SHIT ON THE POTTY...THOUGH SHE USUALLY DOESN'T SAY SHIT:):):)...NO ONE CLAPS FOR ME...LOL...OK, NOT FUNNY...YOU KNOW, I'VE BEEN THINKING ALOT LATELY ABOUT WHAT I REALLY WANNA BE AND I REALLY DON'T KNOW...PART OF ME WANTS TO TRAVEL AROUND THE WORLD, THEREFORE BEING A TRAVELING PHOTOGRAPHER...BUT PART OF ME WANTS TO BE A PRE-K TEACHER THOUGH I NEVER WANT KIDS OF MY OWN...AND THEN THERE'S ALWAYS THE IDEA OF WORKING IN REHAB...FOR ALCOHALICS AND DRUGGIES...PEOPLE THINK I'M KRAZY BUT OH WELLL...PEOPLE WILL THINK ALOT OF THINGS AND MAYBE THEY'RE NOT EVEN WRONG...ANYWAYS...I'M ILL...SO LATER...
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(no subject) [Jan. 16th, 2006|03:29 pm]
jess
[mood |crappycrappy]
[music |ani]

ok...i've come to a conclusion...i am getting a second lj for JUST me...or the people who i think will understand what i have to say...i am tired of being on lj and having to think about how to word things in order not to piss anyone off or make anyone think i'm crazy...but i am crazy...it's just that most people really trult don't exactly understand me or what i stand for...and part of the reason is b/c i'm always too scared to tell anyone...so i guess i'm making a second lj where i will never refrain from saying EXACTLY how i feel...so this way i can still keep the half decent friends that know me as the gurl on this lj...and yet be able to make new friends(or whatever u wanna call them)who are crazy like me, or atleast people who are SOOOOOOOOOOOOO not ur ideal child or friend or student or ideal ANYTHING...ttyl...

!mE~
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(no subject) [Jan. 16th, 2006|03:21 pm]
jess
[mood |busybusy]
[music |smile empty soul]

hey there everyone...today has been pretty good w/ meggsy:):):)...we didn't go skiing, cry cry...but we took some kick asss pictures...the only problem is i can't get them to post on my lj!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so frustrating...anyways, i DREAD going back to school tomarrow SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO bad...make it go AWAY...


~mE~
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(no subject) [Jan. 15th, 2006|10:32 pm]
jess
Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama.
Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time...
But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you.
You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading.
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